Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Baby Steps

Today was a monumental day of sorts. I can't say that I accomplished all that I had planned; actually I didn't do what I had planned. What I did do was get bogged down in cyber space and in the bogging i started to realise a goal. come January 01 I will launch my website; not the free version but the one that's mine.
I don't know what it will do in the human realm. In the faith realm I believe that it will help me to realise my artistic dreams; one of which is to share what God has given me with a wider world, the other that I can establish myself as a serious artist and gain representation.
So look out for on January 01, 2009

Monday, December 29, 2008

The Biggest Deadly Sin

People think that greed, envy, lust and all these are the biggest sins. They aren't.
Now don't get me wrong. These are sins and anybody having to deal with these needs to call on the Lord, but the biggest sin; the one that is so subtle you run the risk of overlooking it and not seeing it as a problem until you are faced with the consequence of it; the biggest sin is procrastination. The putting off for tomorrow what you can do today; the delaying of decisions for your life; decisions that could mean the diference between life and death, poverty or prosperity; heaven or hell.
The bible refers to this as something that is neither hot nor cold; that needs to be spewed out because it is so vile. It's a halting between two opinions; the trying to straddle two sides.
For the artist it sounds the death knell on creativity. For the christian it sounds the death knell.
Procrastination is a silent killer.

Sunday, December 28, 2008


I believe that as an artist I have to keep growing and learning; constantly pushing myself and my creativity. I must never settle for where I am but must always seek to move further and deeper.
I've been salivating and wishing over a few art workshops. There are a few artists whose work I look at and admire and believe that I can learn a lot from their mentoring.
Where I am you don't really hear about workshops. Most of my artistic knowledge came from reading, looking at the works of the great masters such as Monet, Cezanne, Turner and O'Keefe and practising. Mopst important praying for inspiration to get it right. It's a wonderful way to learn but I would REALLY like to go to one of those 5-day workshops and mingle with fellow artists in an inspiring location.
So i'm going to start my wish lis/prayer list. God is going to send me on one of these. He said to ask, believing... so I will.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas

No matter how you spend it, Christmas is a time to remember that Jesus Christ left His home, the love and fellowship of His Father and the glory of Heaven to be begotten of a virgin, born in a manger, doubted, laughed at, reviled, spat on, beaten, rejected and crucified just so that you and I didn't have to be.

If we can't or choose not to see that as perfect love and celebrate it as artists and humans then we all deserve to be in the mess we find ourselves in.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Pain! or What If

Pain is a debilitating experience. Depending on the magnitude of the pain it can lay you up. I have spent the last couple of days either trying to work through the pain (in this case physical pain) or not able to do anything at all.
You know what is most unfortunate about it? It could have been avoided. So much of the things we go through in life could have been avoided, if only....
I look back on my years of toil in the 'art world' and realise the opportunities I let slip through my fingers because of fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of... anything. When I finally stepped off the ledge I recognised the one thing I missed the whole time, that I should not have; God was there and He would not have let me fall.
Now, I look back at all the what ifs and realise that like the pain, they could have been avoided. I can do without all the 'what ifs'. I am not going to look for all the monsters under the bed and talk myself out of opportunities. I am going to step out. I can't avoid the pain i'm experiencing now unless I take the steps necessary to fix the problem that started it. Looking back and saying what if is going to help neither the pain nor my art. Stepping out will.

Saturday, December 20, 2008


Sabbath is a time of reflection; to reflect on God's goodness during the week; and He is good in so many ways. The mistakes made can be confessed and dealt with and tossed into the sea of forgetfulness. I can put aside all my anxiety about becoming a professional artist and just rest.
The triumphs of the week can be rejoiced over and shared with family.
That is the best part of the sabbath. it's a time for family to come together and share and just be together.
Thank you God for this day of rest.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Great is His Faithfulness

Sunrise Over Stella Maris (sold)

Homeward Bound

My artistic experience will forever be a testament to God's faithfulness. He is indeed a rewarder to those who diligently seek Him and call upon His name.

Stella is gone. to God be the glory! I said Lord I don't want to bring any of the paintings that I submitted to the Art Society of Trinidad and Tobago show home. Stella deserves to be sold to someone who will appreciate her beauty.

The Show finished last Tuesday. I went to collect my cheque for Homeward Bound and instead of coming home with a cheque and a painting I came home with no paintings and two cheques.

I went from wondering if I would ever sell anything; if my work was good enough to two paintings being sol in the space of a week.

Noone will ever convince me that God is not real.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Satisfaction II

These are some of the photos from yesterday.

My friend Aten also came along with us on the journey to Balandra. He wanted to experience first hand painting outdoors.

You can say this was my first plein aire workshop.


It was a blessing to go out and paint yesterday. The weather held up eventhough we did get a few showers it was not enough to keep us from painting. The kids frolicking in the water was the only thing I regret not painting.
I am truly blessed to be able to do what i do and experience what I experience...

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Desires II

I've been wanting to paint for days.. no weeks now. It's such a tangible desire that sometimes i can even smell the turp and see the colours being dragged across the canvas.
I can't wait for tomorrow when it will be all about the scene and the canvas and the elements and principles of design; when I will be so close to God that I could almost see His face.
That's what painting does for me; it brings me so close to God that His presence is a tangible thing. I can sense Him close by directing my eyes to the scene and pointing out what I need to do.
God is good.

Monday, December 15, 2008

God is good!

This has been a type of triumphant last quarter of the year. Not only did I finish my pieces for the October exhibition but I took part in two others and I sold work and had a very nice write up in the newspaper.
What was a real triumph was the fact that I did not give in to fear. I had the opportunity to submit work to an art organization outside my usual sphere and I did it! Iwas terrified. Suppose they don't like it, suppose they decide it's not good enough. I almost didn't submit the work but the thought of having to wonder "what if" for the rest of my life was a stronger motivator.
I'm glad I did.

Sunday, August 10, 2008


I love the rain. It creates a sense of newness; like everything is washed clean. The trees look greener, the sky a little clearer,it's wonderful.

Reminds me of what Christ did for me on Calvary.

Was not happy today as I attempted to paint at the Wild fowl Trust which is a place for endangered species of fowl, birds and fishes. There is a really beautiful pond with lily pads and reflections.... so classic. Reminded me of the pictures that I lust over of Monet's garden
I had just set up when the heavens opened and poured out its liquid blessings on all. I was Soaked right through trying to protect the easel and canvas and paints from the deluge.

My husband, who was helping me hold the umbrella said that God wanted me to spend more time looking first.
In everything give thanks.
Lord, thank you for the rain and the painting I will get to complete soon.

Thursday, August 7, 2008


Been Painting.

On Sunday I went out to catch the sunrise. It was beautiful-and i'm not a sunrise kind of girl.
Anyway I was painting near Cumana. This is what the view looked like. Can you see my husband's guitar in the background? Imagine looking out at that with music playing...

Monday, August 4, 2008

Finding Myself

Art and I were on a break. We were separated from each other for more than a year. No paints no composing, nothing. My easel was on the corridor collecting cobwebs and dust mites. My paints started to dry out in the tube. I was passing them by as if I had no knowledge of their existence. It was a miserable time for both of us.
I was going through a period of discouragement and disillusionment and of course dissatisfaction.I didn't like the direction my work was going in; the usual artist angst about work not being sold...and on and on...
To cut a long story short I was away. I finally came back to it and it was as if I had finally found part of me again. I have been going out and painting almost everyday. It's beautiful and fulfilling.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Process 2

It's been a while since I visited, painted,created...anything. I've been a little discouraged and feeling sorry for myself. Also, i've allowed circumstances to cause me to doubt my work and the potential that it has.
I want to go in a different direction. I feel it pulling at me but fear of the unknown has me hesitating and turning away.
I am learning,however, that you can't run away from yourself and what is inside you. So I am going to step off into the unknown, expose myself to criticism,
Father, I pray that you will chart the course and pilot the ship, Amen
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